Jesica Lynne Reynolds

"God will Behold"
July 20, 1990, to July 22, 1990

Our story begins around March 1990. Dan was in the Air Force, and we were young (I was 18, Dan was 20). I went for a routine checkup between 16-19 weeks and had some bloodwork done. Little did I know that a blood test (AFP) would completely change my life and the world as I knew it.

I received a phone call about my results and was told my alpha fetoprotein levels were elevated and I needed to come in for an ultrasound. I was also told "not to worry" that these levels can mean several things... Twins, further gestation, Downs Syndrome, or several neural tube defects. I believe God began preparing me at that very moment. Something deep inside my soul and heart knew that my baby was going to have the "worst" of these possibilities.

It seemed like an eternity before that ultrasound.

Once there, we had the dreaded silence from the technician and a wait that seemed to take forever to hear from the doctor.

My worst fears had come true. My baby had anencephaly. A severe congenital condition in which a large part of the skull is absent along with the cerebral hemispheres of the brain. There were no outcomes that would allow my baby to survive outside the womb.

My first decision was whether to carry to term. My husband and I are very strong Christians and terminating my pregnancy was not an option. I was already so in love with this precious baby I was carrying. How could I end that life?

As long as my baby was thriving in my body, it would have a safe place to grow.

I treasured every day of sickness (which lasted all nine months), every kick, bruised rib (yes, this baby loved kicking my ribs), and any movement my baby made. I continually prayed for a miracle, but also did my best at preparing for the worst.

I was told by several doctors that women carrying babies with anencephaly did not go into labor on their own and I would need to schedule an induction. As we got closer to my due date (July 17th), the hospital scheduled an induction for July 22nd. I dreaded that day because I knew that would be the last chance for my baby to be alive. I continued to pray for a miracle of healing and that I would go into labor on my own and have a healthy baby.

We serve an Almighty God, and he DID answer my prayers.

I did not get all the miracles I prayed for, at least not the way I wanted them to turn out. He DID say, "yes" to allowing me to go into labor on my own.

On July 20th, early in the morning, I began contractions. When I called the hospital, they told me I must be mistaken because I shouldn't be in labor with this baby. After a couple more hours, I went to the hospital, and I was right! I was in labor. God knew my heart couldn't handle being induced.

At 5:43pm, our little girl, Jesica Lynne came into this world. She weighed 4 lbs. 11.5 oz. and was only 15" long, but she was alive!

The next 37 hours are a whirlwind as we had doctors, nurses, family, and church friends surrounding us. My precious girl never cried, her breathing was shallow at times and then would get better. She was so tiny, I couldn't nurse her, but she tried to eat from a bottle that her daddy gave to her.
We were blessed with 37 precious hours with her on this earth. We took pictures during that time, prayed over her, held her (all the time) and sang "Happy Birthday" to her when she reached 24 hours old.

Other prayers were answered during that time. We prayed that all our family would make it to Griffiss AFB in New York to see her while she was alive. During that time, we were blessed with 4 generations being in the room together. My parents, grandparents, and little brother were all there within the first few hours. Dan's mom & sister had to fly from Lubbock TX to see her. They arrived just as she turned 24 hours old and had time to love on her.

We took a lot of pictures and a video. No one saw her defect even though it was obvious... they just saw our beautiful Masterpiece made by our Heavenly Father and they loved her.

Our little girl felt nothing but love from all who were involved and her life mattered. Her story reached around the world, and I thank God for her testimony. She passed away at 6:47am on July 22nd in my arms and entered the arms of Jesus. I have full assurance that we will see our baby girl again in Heaven.

We had a local funeral service for her on July 23rd and then a graveside service on July 27th in a family plot in Pennsylvania.

It's been 32 years, and this is the first time I've written down her story. A lot of details have probably slipped my mind, but I focus on the time we had with her and the good memories.

She will always be my first baby and the one who made me a Momma. I am grateful.

My dad wrote a letter to her when she was 9 hours old. He told us her name meant "God has Mercy".

I didn't look it up myself and this was a long time before computers and google. Her tombstone has "God has Mercy" on it and God was merciful during this time in our lives. However, I've recently looked up the meaning of Jesica for myself. It comes from the Hebrew word yiskah (Iscah) which means, "God beholds" or "God sees". The Exhaustive Dictionary of Bible Names gives the following definition for Iscah: "She will look out, as to God; she will see. Sheltered; protected. He will pour out; He will anoint her; He will screen her." This meaning of her name speaks more to me now and is a sweet reminder that God did see her, He protected her from this cruel world by calling her to Him so early in her life. He used Jesica to reach others for His glory and is still doing that today.

Philippians 4:6-8 spoke into my life during this time as never before. I did pray, I felt God's peace that only He could give, and I thought on those things that were pure, lovely, and praiseworthy. God gave me my miracle. He gave me my beautiful Jesica even if only for a short season.

I pray that Jesica's story will bless all who read it.

Her Momma,

written on September 5, 2022

Postscript: In 1993, God graciously fulfilled the desire of my heart, and we welcomed a healthy baby girl into our family. Today, she is happily married and has blessed us with four wonderful, healthy grandchildren. Then, in 1995, we were blessed again with the birth of a healthy baby boy. He is also happily married and, together with his wife, has given us two beautiful, healthy grandchildren. Looking back, we are continually reminded that even after profound heartbreak, joy can come again. Our first baby will always hold a special place in our hearts, and her life remains an important part of our family's story.

Last updated July 7, 2026